I don't know what happened or what's happening. Alam ko naman na I will always care for you, always. Di nga kita natitiis diba? Whenever you ask me a favor I always find ways para mapabigyan ka that's why I don't know what happened last night.
The other night, when I saw again for about two months, I was very excited and nervous and I don't know. My knees are shaking, actually my whole body is shaking. Maybe because I don't know what to expect. I always look forward on seeing you since January and when you said that you will come here for work. That night when you asked me if we could see each other, I would honestly say that that is what I've been praying to hear from you. That is the first thing I want you to do when you get here. When I already saw you, you obviously seen my big big wide smile. I couldn't stop smiling. That effect of yours whenever we are together has not been change. I mean, whenever we are talking and we're together, I always feel happy and everything seems light like no problems at all.
Last night is the same thing. I was happy seeing you and talking to you and being with you however, something has changed. Actually, after our beak-up, the feelings I have for you has not been changed, in my opinion. I mean, kilig-to-the-bones effect and you know, the in-love-thing that's why I was very surprised last night. When we are doing what we always do, I don't know why but I can't feel that same charisma I had for you. It's like your just another good friend of mine or whatever. The very first thing that came to my mind is, "nawala yung SPARK". I don't if that is really true or I am not just used to your presence yet. I don't know. Maybe it is a good thing that I can evaluate myself and assess how far I've come without you. I would also treat it as an experiment to myself. Still hoping for the best for the both of us.
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